we put together some things to send my grandmother.
Abbott made her a card
with a rainbow
and a heart broken into two pieces
that said, "I know how it feels."
I asked him how he knew and he said, Cinnamon and Piper died. I still feel that way when I think about them.
Yesterday
the boys took their money out of their piggy banks
in preparation for a trip to the lego store.
Cal had less money
because he's spent more.
Abbott gave him three of his dollars
because he said he found him in a corner crying about it.
Tomorrow
is the anniversary of Abbott's due date.
Little did I know then
as I waited for him
how much my life would change.
Or who he would become.
I still wonder about that, really.
In my lifetime
I don't know if I'll ever feel as much empathy for others
as he does.


