After school today, out came the sun - just like that. Kind of like a miracle.It seems like most periods of my life have been characterized by some kind of underlying angst, however minor. You know, in addition to the overall tenor of happiness that has almost always been there for me. Starting around middle school the stress of tests and academic performance, the social scene, boys.. Later, school and career choices and advancement and interactions with colleagues, in addition to the excitement and emotional roller coaster of single life. The major upset of a breast cancer diagnosis. Then there was graduate school and wedding planning, married life and home ownership and childbirth. Learning how to parent and, really at the heart of it, how to live. How to be a grown woman raising her children. I realized today that for perhaps the first time in memory, I'm just about as worry-free as my children are. For the moment, I'm not worried about any particular emotional or behavioral issue of my children's, or my health or relationships, or anything at all. That is not to say that there isn't anything else I hope to achieve, or do, or experience. But life is swimming along and for now it's as good as I can imagine it could ever be. And what a gift and a blessing that is. As I write this the wind is howling ferociously outside and you just never know what might happen when the wind changes.
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Ack! What gorgeous images! I just love all of them, but especially the first one.
What a beautiful post both in words and photos. Just lovely.
This has to be one of my favourite posts. I haven't been through anything like you have but have a tendency to be worried when things seem to be going to well as I feel happiness can't last. Perhaps I should follow your example and just let the wind blow where it wants to. It's wonderful to feel your love of life.
What a wonderful post. How good to feel like life is just as good as you could imagine it to be...
That same wind is howling up here too. I hope the power doesn't go out tonight!
You write so beautifully, Lecia. Every single word in this post is moving, meaningful and beautiful, from the title right down to the last sentence.
What a beautifull post...i read your blog daily, but never ever left a comment.
This post touched me so deeply,so so deeply....that i couldn't go without a comment this time;)
Have a wonderfull day:)
Enjoy every stroke, Lecia. (In keeping with the metaphor, a shameless riff on Warren Zevon)
so wonderful to read this, lecia, and see you swimming in the flow and joy of your life. it's a rare and remarkable thing to live in the moment, but that seems to be where the real juicy bits and joyful bits are. beautiful posts, beautiful mama!
It truly is a blessing. I like you have always lived on the edge of worry. This is a wonderful post. Thanks.
You get to the heart of it here, Lecia.
Beautiful.
Excellent, Lecia. I've been feeling pretty darn good, too...usually I'm one of those worriers, with a pretty active "monkey mind."
Best to you today!
Oh Lecia--I'm so happy you're able to write this. I hope someday I can, too! Thanks for inspiring me today.
Enjoy your blessing! I am glad to hear that you are so content right now...and so worry-free.
I'm that woman right out of graduate school on the cusp of all those stressors however reading your words--I'm quite stress free. delight!
What a lovely lovely post to read. I hope to find myself there with you one day soon.
Nicola
Lovely!
Thank you all so very much. xoxo
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