Friday, July 30, 2010


Today, we put together some things to send my grandmother, who just lost my grandfather. Abbott made her a card with a rainbow and a heart broken into two pieces that said, "I know how it feels." I asked him how he knew and he said, Cinnamon and Piper died. I still feel that way when I think about them.

Yesterday, when the boys took their money out of their piggy banks in preparation for a trip to the lego store Cal had less money, so Abbott gave him three of his dollars.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of Abbott's due date. Little did I know then, as I waited for him, how much my life would change, or who he would become. I still wonder about that.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

summer continues

On the trail to the beach yesterday, we noticed quite a few ripe blackberries. We did the logical thing and changed our plans to accommodate picking and eating, eating and picking. Cal carried his bucket near his face to enjoy the full sensory experience.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

There are times
I wish they knew me in my younger life
I wish I knew them when I was a child.

Monday, July 26, 2010

web of life

Alexi had to work this past weekend. The boys and I attended parties Saturday and Sunday, and I had conversations with many people whom I didn't already know. I found myself dwelling on the ways connections are made, random and not so random. Saturday, I encountered someone who is connected to my friend, the host, because his late wife was my friend's patient before she died. Sunday, someone I talked with knew the host of that party because they had once had a mutual friend. They've both lost contact with the other person, but remained friends with each other.

What a web of life we weave all around us.

Friday, July 23, 2010


Eight or so weeks of the summer, my boys are enrolled in swim lessons at our neighborhood pool. Every single lesson Cal spends much of his time grinning at and waving to me.

Happy Friday to you!

Thursday, July 22, 2010


One of the ways summer is good for me is that it pushes me to operate differently than I do when left to my own devices, primarily because the boys are home. Instead of 'getting things done,' I get out and in summer. Tonight, coming home to chaos after a full, fun day of hiking and picnicing with friends, I decided that I'm not a terrible housekeeper: I am a good wife, mother and friend who happens to have a messy house.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


Habit is one of my daily reads. For the month of July, Emily and Molly, the blog's co-curators have started a flickr group. Anyone so inclined is invited to share a moment of their day with a photo and a few words. The images below are some that I've contributed.

2 July
It dawned on me that yesterday I forgot it was the 13th anniversary. And what a sign of healing. And if things had gone differently, I wouldn't have them.

5 July
I had the feeling of life having come full circle as we hiked.

11 Jul
For a split second I wasn't sure how he was going to react; I saw on his face it could go either way.

14 July
I was glad for the time alone; at the same time, the house felt so empty.

16 July
I had unexpected tears when he came outside in the cape. He reminds me to channel my inner superhero.

17 July
The last time their grandfather came with us to the farmer's market Abbott was two weeks old and in a stroller. Today, we held hands and talked while they shopped.

19 July
To say we were all surprised would be a major understatement.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

been camping

We're home from our annual camping trip. The sense of togetherness will linger with us, despite Alexi's return to work tomorrow and his father's flight home.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

weekend wishes

Wishing you a beautiful and relaxing weekend! I'll be back here on Tuesday. xx

Friday, July 16, 2010


At dinner last night Abbott said that at times he'd wished this day was already over and at times he'd wished it would never end. I felt that way too, at times. There had been nearly continuous fighting and a general lack of cooperation throughout the day. On the other hand, I had really nice time alone with each of them while the other had their swim lesson. Another highlight was when Cal said, with pride, that he was finally able to play "that hard song" (on the piano).

Alexi's father is coming to town today and we're really looking forward to spending some time with him. He's joining us to go camping!

Happy Friday! xo

Thursday, July 15, 2010

in the lavender fields

Earlier this week we visited Purple Haze lavender farm. We roamed (ran through) the organic fields and enjoyed ourselves immensely. The scent was really overwhelming. I wasn't sure if the destination would be a hit with the boys, but they really had a great time. Running through scented fields, cutting flowers to your heart's content - what's not to love about that?

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Remembering Granddad

(me and my Granddad, 1976 or 1977)

My grandfather, Granddad as we called him, passed away on Monday. He had been declining over the past couple of years, and the last few weeks were particularly hard for him, and my family. He was ready to go. In talking to my grandmother it's clear she's relieved he's now free of pain and in a better place.

I can't speak to what kind of a husband or father he was, but I can tell you about the Granddad he was. He was tickling, coca cola in glass bottles, swimming in the river. He laughed easily, and played with us tirelessly when we were kids. As we got older, he never shied away from asking me or my cousins a question he wanted to know the answer to, sometimes much to our surprise or embarrassment. When there was silence around him it was comfortable. He loved The Price is Right and most game shows. He had a deep faith and a great sense of duty to his family and his community. My first driving experiences were with him - first a tractor, later a pickup truck. He had a sweet tooth and liked Little Debbies. I got my compulsive urge to vacuum from him, but never picked up his quirk of drying out the shower.

He will be much missed.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Hello, hello!

It feels like our week is off to a really great start, even though it no longer seems like summer (notice the boys are wearing sweaters again?). We went on a road trip of sorts yesterday. At bedtime Cal said he was glad we'd gone on that vacation...sometimes getting out of town, even if just for the day really feels like one.

I hope you're having a nice Tuesday.