Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Last week, I updated my cell phone contacts for, I think, the first time ever. Lately I've found, with some regularity, I don't have a number I need. I encounter names in my directory that are only vaguely familiar, that I must have added at some point for a one-time purpose, and now clutter the system and make it hard to use. As I was working, adding and subtracting, I came upon my deceased Grandmother Wolf's phone number. I paused and sat for a long time thinking about it, about this discovery. My friend Greg called as I sat there, lost in thought. I told him what had just happened. His mother died a few months ago; I knew he'd understand. I decided to leave in her entry, at least for now. I will have occasional reminders of her at unexpected times, when I happen upon her name in this directory. I think the happiness in remembering her will outweigh the sorrow that comes with the reminder of her absence.